天堂 Heaven

記得一個故事是這麼說的, 最殘酷的懲罰就是沒有人可以分享.
能夠與彼此相愛的人一起看電影, 散步, 甚至只是靠在一起, 都是幸福的, 而那就是天堂, 反之, 就是地獄.
有人曾如此描述地獄, 就是沒有上帝的地方; 與上帝分離.
相信了上帝, 就是開始與神建立一個關係, 一個愛的關係.
但我是否真的因與上帝在一起而感到是在天堂呢?
是否我真的因能夠與他分享歡笑的時光, 流淚的時刻, 或無言的靜默, 而感到滿足, 幸福, 感到在天堂呢?
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There is a story saying like this: the cruelest punishment is there is no one you can share with.
It's happiness and heaven when we are able to have time with the one whom we love each other : talking a walk, watching a movie, or even just leaning against each other.
Believing God is building a relationship with Him, a love relationship.
But would I really feel like in heaven while having the relationship with God?
Do I really think I am in heaven just because I can share the time of my tears, laughs or even silence with Him?
Am I really happy and satisfied with just being with Him?

明白 Understand

為什麼, 為什麼, 為什麼... 不斷的在問.
你或無言, 或給我另一個為什麼的答案. 我繼續的問...

終於, 停止了詢問, 因我無法完全了解你,
無法明白你如何創造這世界, 無法明白你為何如此愛我, 無法明白在你腦中的計畫及想法,

但我終於明白,
這些尚未得到答案的為什麼, 都不在那麼重要,
重要的是...我深深明白你愛我, 全心全意的愛我, 為著我;
而你要的, 是我能愛你, 且完全信任你, 相信你....

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Why? Why? Why...? I keep asking.
Either you are silent or give me an answer for another "why".
I continue asking...

Finally, I stop, because I would never understand you completely.
I don't understand how you created the world;
I don't understand why you love me so;
I don't understand those thoughts and plans in your mind.

But I, finally, understand that
it's not that important to find out the answer for those unanswered questions.
The most important thing is...
I truly know you love me, with your whole heart,
and you are always there for me.
What you want from me is...
I can love you, fully trust in you and believe you...

風箏 Kite

我曾是只風箏, 自在的飛行在天際中.
忘了飛了多久, 習慣了身上的破洞, 裂痕.
漸漸的, 被纏住, 墜落...
我的眼, 直直的盯著在腳下的世界.

我抬頭仰望, 看著屬我的天空,
決定挺身, 掙開繩索,
再次,
感受到風, 經歷到飛翔;
再次
回到屬我的天際...
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I was a kite flying in the sky.
I forgot how long I have been flying, used to the hole on me and cracks.
Slowly, I was stuck, falling and falling...
My eyes, staring at the world under my feet.

I lift up my head looking at the sky once that I belonged to;
Deciding to make my back straight, breaking the rope entangling me.
Again,
I feel the wind; experience the flying;
Again,
turn back to the sky where I belong to...

他聽, 他聽 He answered me

謝謝你聽見我, 且回答了我的請求. 四個月沈默的日子, 今天你開了我的口, 給了我機會, 一個二十分鐘做自己的自在. 謝謝你深知我的心思, 謝謝你的體貼, 謝謝你對我的愛!!
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Thank you for hearing me and answering my request. After four-month silence, today, you open my mouth and give me an opportunity, the twenty-minute freedom of being myself. Thank you for knowing the deep desire down into my heart; thank you for your sweetness; thank you for the love you have for me.

擁抱 Hugs

月亮躲在漆黑的天空之外, 獨自走在蜿蜒的小路上.
累, 是乾裂的雙腳, 也是沁在淚水中的心.
只想躺在你的肩膀上, 任由我的心傾倒在你的面前;
只想張開我的雙臂, 緊緊將你抱住!
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The moon is hiding behind the dark sky.
I am walking along the winding road.
Tired is my legs; tired is my heart sopping in the tears.
I just want to lean on your shoulders and pour out my heart before you;
just want to open my arms and hold you tightly into my arms.

安靜 Silence

好一段時間沒有打開我的部落格了.是忙,也可能是不願有太多感覺吧.所以寫不出什麼東西...
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It's been for a while not opening my blog. Busy is the reason but also I didn't want to have too many feelings. Therefore, I have nothing to say....

真誠的對待自己?! Treat yourself truly?!

前幾個星期又再看了一次"臥虎藏龍“.當然那些武術的美是不在話下,但吸引我的是片中的角色及對話.在片尾,出現了這句話"真誠的對待自己",聽來是錯綜複雜的滋味.每個人都希望可以真誠的對待自己,聽自己心裡的聲音,做真的自己,可是什麼是"真的自己"呢?大多數的人可能在其他人的身上找自己,在不同的價值觀中找自己,用自己的直覺找自己,但這些都不完全,都是一片片的拼圖.我相信只有上帝可以告訴我們什麼是"真的自己".聖經說:"我的肺腑是你所造的,我在母腹中,你以覆蔽我".若要真的知道如何'真誠的對待自己",那應該要先找到自己,所以何不在上帝的眼中,尋找那個未曾見過的自己呢?
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Couple of weeks ago, I watched the movie "Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon" again. No doubting, the martial art is beautiful and amazing but the thing attracted me most is the characters and the context. In the end of movie, there is a sentence filled with mixed feelings, "treat yourself truly". Everyone wants to treat himself truly, to listen to the voice from his heart and to be himself. But what is "true self"? Most of us tries to find ourselves from others' eyes, different values or our own conscience or instinct, but all of these is not complete but pieces of puzzles. I believe only God can tell us who we really are. Bible says: "For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb." If we want to know how to treat ourselves truly, we should, first, find out who we really are. So why not try to find out the "you" who you never see and know through God's eyes.