沈默的吶喊 Crying in silence

我還是喊了出來

在心裡
以為不再痛, 以為已感受不到痛
但就如被截肢一般
手是不在了
感覺依然
痛依然
多久, 還要多久

你說 會海闊天空的
你說 會陪我走過
你說 會再次飛翔
你說

你的話成為我的安慰
你的話成為我的力量
你的話成為我的希望

但願你的話不只是言語
但願我看見且經歷到你的話
但願我的相信成為真實
但願...

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Again, I cried it out
in my heart
I thought I won't feel pain anymore; I thought I can take that pain
But it is like cutting my hand off
my hand is gone
but the feeling is there
the pain is there
How long? How long would it be?

You said, I will see the the sunshine again
You said, you will be there with me
You said, I will fly again in the blue sky
You said...

May your words not be just word itself
May I see and stand in your work of your words
May what I believe become so true and real
May....

笑與淚 laugh with tears

一只封塵很久的箱子
早已忘了
也不想再翻開
但
無意間
被人攪動翻亂
哭了
因不想回顧
笑了
因不再需要保存那只殘破的箱子
我
流著淚笑著
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A box, locked for a long time
forgot it for years
don't want to open it either
But
suddenly
someone opened it, poured it out
I cried
for I don't want to see those things in the box
I laughed
for I don't need to keep this old broken box anymore
I laughed with tears

開始 New start

時間像是不會斷的河水, 流啊流...

該如何劃清界線, 向過去說再見
終於
在記憶的儲藏室中, 畫出一道線
停止在那陳舊的皮箱中尋找
上了鎖
轉過身
邁開步
重新開始吧!!!
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Time is a river, running without stop
How to draw a line in time to say good-bye to the past
Finally
I draw a line in the storage room of my memories
Stop searching in the old suitcase carrying laughs and tears
Lock it up
Turn around
Step out
Let's have a new start!!!

酸與甜 Sweet and sour

那天和一個剛信主的朋友聊天, 他說到生命就是一段和上帝相交的時光. 他的話不禁點醒了我, 在我的生命中, 這段與神交往的時光, 有多少是在與祂賭氣, 與祂爭鬧, 又有多少時光是真正愛祂, 與祂交心的呢?
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The other day, I had a chat with a friend who just accepted Jesus as his Lord. He mentioned that life is the time to have relationship with God. What he said made me glimpse something: how much of my life that I spend on arguing or wrestling with God and how much of my life that I love Him truly and worship Him?

knock, knock...

Knock, knock...
"Is anyone there?"
Knock, knock...
"Could you let me in?"
Knock, knock...
"Please open the door!"
Knock, knock...
Knock, knock...

I run out my tears and strength
sitting on the ground outside of the gate
"knock, knock..." I say...

I stare at the door and wait
leaning on the door shut behind me
"knock, knock..." I say...

You open the door with tears on your face
smiling to me and say...
"my love, sorry for making you wait
I have prepared the best for you, my beloved."

Knock, knock...
Knock, knock...
The pounding of my heart has been heard by my beloved...

Knock, knock...
Knock, knock...

smile

前兩天搭捷運時, 在車廂中看到一張立貼, 上面寫著: "讓陽光照進車廂. 對你身邊的來個微笑吧."
看了, 嘴角不禁微笑了起來, 在這冷冷的空氣中, 灰灰的車廂裡, 臉上的微笑就像是溫暖的太陽花...
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Couple of days ago, I saw a note sticked on the glass of London underground. It was saying: make the sun shine on the underground; smile to the person you see next you."
Reading it, I can't hold my smile. In the chilly air, gray cart, the smile on our faces is the warmest sunflower...

天堂 Heaven

記得一個故事是這麼說的, 最殘酷的懲罰就是沒有人可以分享.
能夠與彼此相愛的人一起看電影, 散步, 甚至只是靠在一起, 都是幸福的, 而那就是天堂, 反之, 就是地獄.
有人曾如此描述地獄, 就是沒有上帝的地方; 與上帝分離.
相信了上帝, 就是開始與神建立一個關係, 一個愛的關係.
但我是否真的因與上帝在一起而感到是在天堂呢?
是否我真的因能夠與他分享歡笑的時光, 流淚的時刻, 或無言的靜默, 而感到滿足, 幸福, 感到在天堂呢?
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There is a story saying like this: the cruelest punishment is there is no one you can share with.
It's happiness and heaven when we are able to have time with the one whom we love each other : talking a walk, watching a movie, or even just leaning against each other.
Believing God is building a relationship with Him, a love relationship.
But would I really feel like in heaven while having the relationship with God?
Do I really think I am in heaven just because I can share the time of my tears, laughs or even silence with Him?
Am I really happy and satisfied with just being with Him?